I figured it out...

I finally figured out to have titles! Yay for me!

The Potty Obscure

Jack is in need of a potty chair. For about two weeks now he has been bringing me diapers and proceeded to yank his off when he needs a change. A sign if there ever was one. The first step in a forever diaper free home. Yay for me!
There was once a thought that he may not be my last child but as the months have progressed and we have moved from one stage to the next I have realized, I am done. I do not want any more kids. When the diapers are done I am done with diapers. When the sleepless nights were done, I was done with sleepless nights. I have been very fortunate to be blessed with two amazing and intelligent children. Two healthy and vibrant and beautiful children. I am willing to stop right here and let myself breath. New baby's are HARD, new toddler's are HARD and as I am now discovering three year old's are even more difficult than any of the above. Sigh...So ovaries you are worthless now. Maybe I will have a little service to say goodbye to their usefulness. Yes, I think I will.

Sometimes......

I get the feeling I am living in a war zone with a 3 year old as the general, foot soldier and executioner.

Sometimes....

I wonder why relationships are so difficult to maintain. Not between spouses but between friends. I have been kind of agonizing over a friendship that is very dear to me. I learned my lesson years ago about being a good friend. I lost a very special person because of I didn't work hard enough to maintain it. Because I got too caught up in my own personal bullshit to think about her feelings. I have learned that no matter what, you cannot do that. It is my belief that when you embark on a relationship with another person, you become, in some ways, responsible for their feelings.
The majority of my friends have no children. I realize I need to seek out friends with kids. People that understand what my life is like and whom I can will listen sympathetically to my woes and excitedly to my triumphs as a parent. This blog has been my only real connection to other mother's. It's difficult though when the friends I have, have been around for at least a decade.
One of my closest friends got married two years ago and we have always just hung out as married couples regardless of my kids. We have always made it a point to spend quality girl time together, be it shopping during the day or drinking copious amounts of wine on my porch at night. Until recently. She has become acquainted with another "soon to be" married couple and spending a lot of time with them. I don't want to be like "me! me! me!" I know we all need other friends but every time I call her lately to hang out, and I am the one to call, she is busy with the other girl. I figured that at some the fact that I do have kids and my life revolves around them would become, maybe not an actual issue, but a point of widening the gap of our friendship. I knew this deep down but have trudged along almost oblivious to it. I guess maybe hoping it wouldn't happen. I'm afraid it has happened. Maybe for reasons I can't see, but my feeling is because I am lame now that I am a mom. Ech...it sucks. Maybe I am being too sensitive and reading into it too much. I don't know...we shall see.

Really, I've Had Enough!

This pink eye shit is awful! I got Jack up this with a gunky eye. I cleaned it off and nothing happened. No gunk. Not for an hour and a half....I got the kids ready for daycare, put them in the car and when we got there I found a nice goopy eye on Jack. Yay for Jack! Yay for me! Obviously he couldn't go to school like that, so I stayed in with him today. It was nice being alone with him. I rarely get the opportunity to spend one on one time with the babes so when I do, I love it. Granted, he was icky as hell and whiny to boot but all was good and overall I enjoyed our time together.

I look at them sometimes and think "holy hell! where did the time go?" It seems like only yesterday he was born...hell it seems like only yesterday Chloe was born. To think she'll be four in just a few months. Crazy. Crazy I tell you!

I took a voluntary day off last week to spend with Chloe. She's been more difficult than usual lately and I thought that maybe some serious girl bonding time would be the cure....um....what was I thinking? While we had a blast running around, going out to lunch and making friends at the park it just wasn't what I thought it would be. I realize it takes more than once and I've been trying like hell to shower the attention but nothing seems to break through. Other moms I've talked to say that this is normal and it will pass by five but HOLY SHIT! she is out of control! I actually sat on her the other day during one of her hellacious tantrums. It is the only way to keep her from harming things around her. Quite a temper, that one! It's actually been like that since she started realizing she was an individual. Just nasty tantrums....it's so very frustrating and exhausting. I'm running out of ideas here.

Okay, laptop battery about to die so I must run...love to all!

Rock and Roll Isn't Dead

Jack's first haircut...and yes, we saved the hair.

Taking some time....
It's been a while since I've had the opportunity and the energy to sit and write. Things are getting busier and busier around here with the kids. Now that Jack is FULLY mobile and getting more coordinated by the day, he seems to be getting into so much stuff! Actually into everything...it's crazy around here.

Chloe came down with a strange eye infection Friday night. I thought it was pink eye at first but her doctor seemed to think it was something else so she called in antibiotics. Yay!! Kids with gunky painful eye yucks are no fun. At all. Bleh. I just hope no one else comes down with this....

I PROMISE I will be back with more so very soon....