Thursday, January 13, 2011

Leilani Love

A year ago, I had my two children and my heart was full. I didn't think I wanted any more kids...I was good, In fact, I was perfect. Complete. Or so I thought. Then I met and fell in love with a man that had a child of his own. Actually I'm pretty sure I fell in love with them both at the same time. You see the first weekend Phillip and I spent together was his weekend with her. I was so wary at first to get involved with a man that had a child. I dated other men with kids and ended up liking the kids so much better than I ever liked their dads and when we inevitably stopped seeing each other, I missed the kids and felt horrible about getting to know them and then having to walk away. I didn't want that to happen again but the pull of Phillip, his magnetism, his effect on me made me throw all caution to the wind. It was one of the best decisions I've ever made...

She was sleeping when he got her to his house that Friday night but when I saw her sweet sleeping face I physically felt my heart expand. I just knew...this little girl was already a part of me. She was meant to be a part of my family just as much as Chloe and Jack were meant to be mine. I had heard about that connection happening with adoptive parents but I was skeptical and then this angel fell into my life. I was in love. I can't really tell you what we did that weekend besides snuggle on the couch with her and read her books. I think I read the same three books dozens of times apiece. She would crawl into my lap with her arms overflowing with books and ask for me to read them again and again. I was more than happy to oblige.

We worked it out so his weekends with her coincided with the weekends I had my two. We decided that having the three of them together felt so right. They got along so well, hell they even looked alike! It was strange and good...Chloe and Jack called her their sister the first weekend they spent together. She called Chloe sissy and Jack her brudder Dack. Our babies...our family.

                                                          I love this picture of her being silly

                                                                         The girls

                                                          Three little loves at Oma & Opas
                                                               (Phillips parents)
                                                            She is just so beautiful!
                                    This was taken before Phillip and I met but I love this picture of her.
                                  This was taken before we met as well I just love the picture though!
                                                         Such a sweet baby girl.

Even before Phillip and I got married, if someone asked us separately or when we were together how many kids we had, we always said three because really and truly she belongs to me and mine belong to him. I'm not trying to take her moms place nor is he trying to take their dads place, those spots are filled but we are extensions of each other and love these little beings with our whole hearts. We are so blessed to have so much love.


Bernie said...

Interesting. Will try to keep up with you.
I am sending a link to Oma.
Nice selection of pictures.

Woman on the Verge said...

Aw Opa! You read it! Love you!!!

Scott said...

You are blessed, indeed! That so often does not work out (or so I'm told) but it obviously works out for the two of you!