Thursday, March 29, 2007

Why do I feel like I'm flailing in the mud sometimes? Just stuck, helplessly trying to fight my way out...up to my ears in shit. Whatever. Bleh. That's how I feel right now. Today.
It seems that, no matter what, I keep making choices that turn out to be the wrong ones. No matter how much thought I put into them, it backfires and causes me grief. I know I made a lot of very poor decisions in the past and they have led me down a path I was too short-sighted to see years before, but come on already! How fucking long to I have to pay for those mistakes? A lifetime? Sometimes this is just too much to carry.

3 comments:

Amy said...

Sumsy, I am sorry...we'll talk soon and vent and freak out and talk smack ok? I miss you & you live 10 minutes from me!!!!

the weirdgirl said...

I'm sorry things are bad right now. I know how you feel. Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

You made these mistakes so that your chidren do not have to. Be open an honest (as you can be) with them in the coming years and you begin to see all the struggle was not in vain. Some one named "Summer" shouldn't be so down on themselves. It should be all smiles and rainbows Mrs. Pickard. LOL.